gong gong bye bye

gong gong bye bye
i duno how many times i said this before..

sometimes, i will look for u n say bye..
sometimes, i will juz shout, and leave..
sometimes, you were juz beside me..
and i no need to look for you, no need to shout..
but everytime, i will get a "bye" from you in return..

this time..
i say bye again..
miles away from you..
but i do not needa look for you..
and i am not shouting either..
because i know you are somewhere near me, and can hear my whisper..

the moment i said gong gong bye bye..
i think i heard your bye..
usually, i can call gong gong again after saying bye
in days or the most, weeks..
this time, i am sure i cant call u again that soon..
but i will meet you again i noe..

last nite i was still very unwilling to say bye..
i still don wana look at u 4 d last time corz i noe i won wana let go if i do..
i was still crying when i went to sleep..
but today, i feel extremely peaceful..
they send u off at 11am, my 4pm..
i tot i will b sad again, but no..
i found the courage to say bye..
i found the courage to open d mail which i can see you for this one last time..
must be you.. who made me change in one night..
touching my comp screen, i said bye..
i noe you can hear it..

do you noe why i finally dare to say bye?
corz this thought came across me..
fr now on, u live in my heart..
thus itz not a bye, itz a hi..
i love you soooooo much..

thanks for this 19 yrs..
thanks for doting me like no one else..
that pair of gloves you bot fr china..your very last gift,
do you mind if i don use it?
i noe u won..
u wil let me do wateva i wan, as long as itz not wrong..
herm i cant write anymore d..
am missing you more n more..

ok, gong gong..
do not worry bout me..i will take good care of myself..
you go n do wateva that you needa do ok?
send my regards to ah cho..
help me thank her for waiting for me last yr.. =)

*ah ma told me,u used learning english as an excuse to go near her..so, english is your excuse to "kao" ah ma, and is the reason i can meet you and being loved by you for 19 years..you don mind if this post is in english rite? =P*