-倒影的指引-

36 hours to palmy airport..
the room is still so messy although i thought i have packed almost everything..
oh n i forgot bout the kitchen stuffs..
i do not know why packing this time frustrates me..
i thought i should be feeling happy or excited..

maybe because i have too many stuffs to pack this year..
i shall stop buying clothes and shoes..
and soft toys..
not that i am not happy to go home..
i think i am not happy to come back..

going back home is to leave home again..
i guess i am ok with leaving home.. [yea right]
as i love palmy too and i don feel sad to come back to palmy at all.. [is true]
but..
thinking of..uncertainties when i will see palmy again.. annoys me..

what kind of year is waiting ahead?
who will step into my life?
who will step out of my life?
how much tears will i shed?
how much laughter will i share with my friends?
what will i learn?
how will i change?
scary isnt it..

coming back, u don't know what is awaiting and no one will face those together with you.
family they care, but too far away..
and there is no point to notify them when they cant help..

oh well, 3 more months for me to enjoy 1st anyway..
next year, might be as good as this year.. as peaceful, as calm, as blessed.
no point worrying too much aye..

bye palmy, bye duckies, bye fresh air, bye clean water, bye cold, bye independence, bye speedy internet, bye freedom.

hello malaysia, hello penang, hello polluted air, hello yellowish water, hello heat, hello to everything i love.. =)